Dear Incarnate God,
I have been delivered
by Thy blood and righteousness imputed to me by faith alone. No matter what I belong to Thee wholly and
redemptively. I have union with You by
faith alone. Love lasts forever. I would love to hug You and rest on Your
chest and be the apple of Your eye. I hope to grow in love. I am one of Your elect and set apart. There is no way I am delivered apart from Thy
love but I am delivered by Thy love alone.
Thou knowest all things like Peter said and thou knowest that I love
Thee.
I was redeemed by
grace alone through faith alone in Christ alone. It is by Thy free love and mercy and
compassion that I stand delivered before Thee this day. My goal for the last day of my life and for
the Last Day of Judgment is to be quitted and give a good testimony to the
Lord, knowing I am cleansed by His blood and share a good testimony like
Demetrius of Third John.
I am redeemed from my
nature. I was set free. I was made whole. I have been forgiven and cleansed. Oh, how
precious is the name of Jesus. It brings
sweet peace to my heart and soul to merely mention Thy name. I was blind but now I see. I carried a great burden upon my back. No one cures the spiritual pain of the soul
like Jesus. Jesus did not come into the
world to condemn the world but to forgive and save by His free grace. He saved my soul countless times from the
world, flesh and the devil. I used my
time with focus on basketball and little time on godly concerns. I also had a wrong view of the nature of man
and repentance because of family and Rome but my dad
tried to help. I am sorry this was the
case about the wrong. I was someone who
decided to follow Jesus at different times in my life but especially the late
summer of 2004. I decided to really to
seek to know Him and I thought I should follow Jesus. I am unsure why it was 24 when I decided to
follow Jesus but struggled with unbelief.
I think it happened this way because it was providential. At the age of 25 I was able by the Holy
Spirit and the Word of God to gain assurance of salvation. You saved me not by stained works of
righteousness but by Your unconditional love that means to me “I will stay with
You no matter what” is what I will never leave you nor forsake it means. It is Your unconditional love and divine
election. It was not anything I have
done but by Your mercy. You saved a
particular people by the awesome work of Jesus alone in His unified merit. Your unified merit covers me. The Spirit made me born again through the
Word in taking out a heart of stone and giving me a heart of flesh to believe
and repent. You gave me by Your Spirit
Your unified merit. I remember You
showed it to me at the camp assault in the midst of great tribulation for
me. You also did not leave me to myself
but preserved me and kept me with Your people since I was born again. I give my crown to Thee and cast it before
Thy feet. I desire to sing praises,
rejoicings, blessings and thanks for all eternity.
You said that You
would never cast us out if we come to You.
I have come to You in search of forgiveness. I give my soul to You that You make me right
with You. I repented of everyday of my
life in regards to total depravity and original sin that removed a great burden
like Christian in Pilgrims Progress. I know it’s free and You forgive even sins
I am not aware of. I use to wonder if I
could come to You with anything I have done wrong. I believe You are the Man of Proverbs that is
closer to a brother and a most excellent friend. So I can come to You with everything that I
have done in hope of forgiveness. I rely
on no subjective vision to say “I am forgiven” but like my mentor, Dr. Martin
Luther, I rely on the written Word of God alone that clearly says I am forgiven
by Your free grace. However, there is
others among us that hate free mercy like Rome. I can easily prove this and You taught
it. It is a serious matter. I want nothing more then to live for
You. Amen.
I also judged myself
in light of the written Word of God in the OT and NT as I went along the way as
I lived on earth as a sheep, desiring to be at the right side of God’s people. I judged myself by the Spirit of God who
enables me to repent by His loving-kindnesses.
I did this so I would not be judged at the Last Day. I saved the judgment for living on earth
instead of waiting to be judged at the Last Day. I believe there is no judgment for the elect
and that means no judgment for me. I
praise You that the Spirit of God enabled me to repent. I know I am not judged but desired to give an
account to my life in the spirit of awareness, knowledge and success in
redemption by Thy Word and Spirit. The
view is changed from judgment of reprobates to the elect in accessing knowledge
and progression in godliness, holiness, uprightness and getting right with God
to fulfill all divine and practical righteousness by the Spirit of God and the
Word of God.
I learned about sin
and God and his only beloved Son in the Bible and I believe the doctrine of
sola scriptura. All these doctrines have
at its core is “to God alone be the glory.”
I was unable to believe because of my nature. You know the nature of man well and You know
that the nature of man is darkness. However,
You know the light of the world because it is You. I do not mean to say that I am condemned by
mentioning darkness. I am simply saying
what the Bible says. You saved a lost
sinner as me. All I desire this day is
Thy acceptance. I love Your redemptive
grace because it sets me free. There is
a separation between common grace and redemptive grace. I am thankful for both. I want to be with You no matter what because
for me there is no condemnation, forsakenness, damnation and leftness. I did not enlist in Your service to be a goat
or a wolf but a true sheep. In
justification I cannot get any more right with You in Your unified merit which
is more than enough for a sinner to get right with You. In glorification we get a perfect nature and
a perfect heart but in regeneration we still have a heart that is imperfect
heart. It requires faith and repentance
over our sin corrupt, unrighteous and non-good natures. I used Your Word to
investigate what I need to repent of and I trusted in Thy work as Savior and
Lord. Thank You for Your eternal
pre-existence, birth, life, death, burial, resurrection, ascension, cessation and
intercession to the uttermost. I am not
worthy to wear the crown so I cast it to Thy feet. It means that You alone are worthy O Lamb of
God slain before the foundation of the world!
I am one of Your elect because I have evidence of being born again: faith
and repentance. I realized Your free
boundless grace, mercy, forgiveness, love, tender mercies, compassions and
loving-kindnesses. I began to understand
that I am forgiven and that if You are a God ready to pardon and forgive I
should always go on the side of repentance or on the side of the Gospel even if
I was not sure. I thought I should take
advantage of the forgiveness of Christ because He died freely. We overcome Satan by our testimony and blood
of the Lamb as it says in the book of Revelation. The Bible says if we remain faithless He
remains faithful. If we think we are
condemned in our hearts but we are not condemned God knows all things and knows
we belong to Him. I desire to hear
Gospel promises and rest on Your chest like Beloved John. We discussed about what I would do in heaven
and how if something was not granted on earth, it would be granted in
eternity. I hope that this will happen
and a hope is an assured thing. This is
my little testimony and I believe You are faithful to me. Thank You and I
praise You because I know I am forgiven.
Amen. In Christ Your friend. Amen. Sheltered in my Refuge, amen.
